So here it is, already Wednesday night and I am exhausted and ready for this week to be over. I am not sure what happened this week. Yes, I know I started a new job but I am working the same hours with approximately the same commute time but yet I have felt frazzled and crunched for time every day. I guess I just need to adjust to the newness and the small changes in my habits and in no time I will be back to my old routine.
I have received some comments, tweets, FB messages, and texts asking about my new job so here is a quick update. I will continue to talk about it again in the future when I am actually doing work. Right now I am still getting setup with all my passwords and accesses, meeting co-workers, learning about my work group and our role in the company and all that other fun stuff you do at a new job. However, that being said, I still wanted to give you an update on how it has went so far and I will do this by sharing some observations with you. Sort of a surface level pros and cons list.
Every morning we stretch. Like yoga stretching. I love this. It is great to work somewhere where they put safety first and that it trickles down the office workers. It’s a nice break and really helps set the tone for the morning.
They recycle everything. There are recyclable containers for cans and plastic bottles all over the place which is amazing because this is Texas, we aren’t really known for being an environmentally conscious state.
I love working downtown. Our office building is right on the Riverwalk. I have a view of downtown from my desk.
My co-workers are very nice and they have been quite welcoming. On my second day (the first was spent at orientation) they took me down to Texas Land and Cattle on the Riverwalk for lunch.
The company promotes the use of public transportation and offers discounted bus passes. They also have vehicles you can use if you want to carpool. It’s like I am back in Washington again.
They have Weight Watchers at work and they offer reimbursement of fees if you stick with the program. People in my work area are in the program and talk about it openly
It is super cold in my office. No big deal really, I just need to wear sweaters to work in 100+ heat.
Because we have so much natural light coming in to our office we don’t have overhead lights. Each desk has a small under-shelf light but mine is behind me. It makes it difficult to see in there. I plan on picking up a desk lamp so I can see better.
My commute to work is shorter mileage wise than my last job and when we move on post it will be super close, like under 5 miles. However, I have to park in a lot about a block away, enter the front of my building to one elevator, take it up all the way, get out, walk across the floor to another elevator and take that up to my floor. This is what makes it a longer commute. Still, it’s really no big deal and if you get there early parking and the elevators are no big deal.
There are people at work who go out running on their lunch break and groups who go out walking.Yay! However, there is only one shower for all of the employees in two office buildings to use. Boo!
People eat lunch at their desk. This is my least favorite thing. I hate ‘working’ lunches. I strongly dislike being forced to take an hour lunch unpaid while there is an existing expectation that I will sit at my desk and work while I eat. Nope, don’t like it, not going to do it. Now, don’t get me wrong, I will definitely work if I need to but it shouldn’t be expected and it shouldn’t be every day. Today I brought my Kindle (woo hoo) and turned away from my computer and read. It was nice.
Well, that’s about all I have to report on at this time. I hope to have more to talk about come next week. Thanks for reading!
Today is the last day at my current job and I was greeted with mixed emotions. Happy to be starting something new, excited to meet all of my new co-workers and start my new job, nervous as to how I will fit in and how my new work schedule will mesh with my classes/workouts, sad to leave some great co-workers /friends behind and anxious to leave someplace where I feel so comfortable and head into an unknown situation. I know all of this is normal and thankfully it’s not nearly as traumatic as when I left my job in Philly. That was devastating. Multiple going away parties, lots of tears, and I still miss that place even to this day. But that is life. Here’s to new beginnings!
When I started this blog over four months ago one of the things I wanted to fix in my life was my career situation. I didn’t talk about my job too much, other than venting about it every now and again, but it was clear to me then that I felt like my career had stalled. Actually I felt like I had taken three steps back on my career path and that had made me feel kind of crappy. I had different expectations as to where I should be at this point in my life and to not be there, especially after progressing nicely prior to moving to TX, was such a disappointment. I wanted to change jobs, I wanted to feel better about my career and its progression again, but I was only willing to leave this job for something better. Luckily a friend of mine found a job posting that was in my field and passed it on to me and here I am today, looking forward to starting that job on Monday. It will be great. It’s a pay increase which I am not going to lie, is much-needed, but it is also the type of job that will challenge me and allow me to grow within the company and I am most happy about that. Just like all the other aspects of our lives, it is important that we step outside of our comfort zone in order to allow ourselves to grow.
Speaking of stepping outside of my comfort zone, I went to my second Bikram class last night and I am so glad that I did. The second time around was so much better, still hard as hell, but better. Paul liked it so much more because of the instructor. This instructor started off the class by telling the group that he hated Bikram and most days he had to force himself to do it. However, it was because of Bikram that he was able to do all of the other activities in his life that he loves to do, like wakeboarding. He said that Bikram helped him through a surfing injury, one that should have required surgery, and now he is stronger than ever and able to do so many more things than he ever could prior to Bikram. He told us to treat Bikram like it is our medicine, 90 minutes of medication, and we should just suck it up, take the medicine, and then go on with our lives. I think that speech brought some perspective to both Paul and I. After that we both viewed the class a little differently. I also think knowing what to expect made the second class much easier to get through. For me, I like to know when I am in the home stretch- it helps keep me going- and since we cannot wear watches and there are no clocks in the room the only way to know it is when it is close to over is through the poses which are done in the same order every time. Once we hit rabbit pose I knew it was almost over and I started singing my happy song, in my head of course.
As the class was coming to an end the instructor said something to us, something he was told by another yogi, and I wanted to share it with you. He said for us ‘to be fearless, not reckless’ which is applicable to our yoga practice and really life in general. So, I will leave you with that thought for the day. Come Monday, I will try to be fearless and I hope you can do the same when faced with difficult situations.
Thanks for reading!
P.S. I got called away when I was writing the last line of this post. Several co-workers had a card and a gift they wanted to give me as a farewell present. They bought me a Kindle! Isn’t that crazy? That was such a sweet thought and it meant so much more because they said it was so I could have my own and won’t have to keep stealing Paul’s. They know me so well J
Hello party people….it’s been awhile. Sorry for abandoning you. Please know I have missed all of you, and your blogs, over the past two weeks and I am so happy to be able to take some time and catch up with you. So much has happened these last two weeks I don’t really know where to start. Hmmmm… I probably should start with my Weight Watchers update from last Saturday.
First off let me just tell you that last week I busted my ass. I worked out eleven times totaling over ten hours and earning a whooping 73 activity points. For those of you not on WW, you should know that this is a very high number. Here is what that week looked like in terms of workouts:
Saturday 6/11: early morning gym workout (recumbent bike 35 minutes, elliptical 15 minutes), mid-morning walk- 4 miles
Sunday 6/12: early morning hike- 2 miles, evening Zumba class
Monday 6/13: 75 minutes of yoga
Tuesday 6/14: 55 minute boxing class followed by 60 minutes of walking- 3 mile
Wednesday 6/15: 55 minute hoopdance (hula hoop) class
Thursday 6/16: 75 minute Qigong class
Friday 6/17: 55 minute boxing class followed by 55 minutes of walking – 3 mile
I ate right, exercised, and made sure to stay hydrated and what happened…. I gained 0.4 pounds! That’s right, I gained. I was somewhat pissed about gaining because I was only 0.2 pounds away from hitting my 25 pound milestone and 3.2 away from hitting my 10% weight loss goal. I had thought reaching my 10% would have been a stretch but I thought for sure I would have lost 0.2 pounds and hit that 25 lb. milestone. I was kind of bummed out not reaching either L
I took this setback as a chance to evaluate where I might have went wrong and tried to make some changes this week to hopefully get back on track. However, this is easier said than done. This week has been crazy, maybe even crazier than last week and I haven’t done much this week. Yes, I am still tracking what I eat and following the WW plan but some days I struggled making my healthy checks (8 glasses of water, 8 servings fruit/veg, 3 dairies, etc) and I know that this will impact my weigh in results for this week. Not to mention I only went to one boxing class and one NIA class this week so my exercise level is way down. I did however get in my week 3 training for the half marathon which is a good thing. I guess my point of all this is sometimes you can do everything right and not lose weight – that’s just life. Some people lose weight easily and some have to fight for every pound but regardless of how you get to your goal weight it is important to focus on all of the positive changes happening, not just that number on the scale. For me, I have to keep reminding myself that although that weigh in sucked I am in a much better place, I am a million times happier than I have been in who knows how long, and this life I am living now is what I have always wanted. These are the things that really matter.
In other news, she says nonchalantly like it’s no big deal, I GOT A NEW JOB!!!! I am so excited to finally tell you guys this news. I was notified on 6/15 I would be getting an offer pending my drug screening and background check. I went in that day for my drug test and submitted all of the necessary paperwork for the background check and then waited anxiously to hear back. I didn’t want to announce anything until the offer was finalized and I had my start date. I got a call on Wednesday that I passed everything and I was all set to go, we agreed on my start date (7/11) and then yesterday I came into work and submitted my letter of resignation. I am so freaking excited to start this new job; July 11th cannot come fast enough. I know the next two weeks are going to be pretty hectic at work trying to get as much done as possible before I leave but that is life and once it is over I move on to bigger and better things. I hope I hit my 10% weight loss goal soon because I am in desperate need of some new work clothes. So here’s to hoping I can reach that goal prior to July 11th. Please send skinny thoughts my way
This morning I weighed in at 253 on my home scale which is a loss of 33 pounds since I started this blog back on 2/22. Four months already? Crazy. Anywho, in celebration of my favorite number/my age/the title of this blog I would like to leave you a list representing what thirty-three pounds look like. Enjoy!
6 bags of flour and 3 boxes of butter
A cinder block
11 average male guinea pigs or 11 average male brains
3 average sized house cats or 1 ‘Monster’ Cat found in China weighing in at a whopping 33 pounds- yikes!
176 glazed Krispy Kreme donuts
11 pairs of sneakers
301 medium eggs
3 gallons of milk and an average newborn baby combined
So, if you are trying to lose weight and you feel like you aren’t making progress or like me, you don’t see the results, just think of it this way and it will totally change your mind!
Have a great weekend! Thanks for reading!
Back in fashion of previous week’s posts, here are my responses to five more questions from Marc and Angel Hack Life’s list of 365 thought-provoking questions to ask yourself this year. I would love to hear your answers so please feel free to comment on your thoughts or if you are blogging your responses please share a link to your post!
If you could choose one book as a mandatory read for all high school students, which book would you choose?
I think most students still read this early on in high school but I would pick ‘To Kill a Mockingbird’ as a mandatory read. There really are so many books I think are very important for children/teenagers to read- so many books that teach us important life lessons so it was hard for me to choose just one. “To Kill a Mockingbird” is one of my favorite books of all time and when I first read it at the age of 14 it truly impacted my life and my views on the world. It taught me acceptance and empathy and for that I am truly grateful.
Would you rather have less work or more work you actually enjoy doing?
This is a tough question. I would like to say less work because it would allow me more free time to do other things. However, I think less work would lead to an increase in laziness, not productivity so I am going to have to say I would prefer to have more work that I enjoy doing. Currently I find myself struggling with this everyday and if faced with opportunity I would probably move into a new position/job if it offered me challenging work because I know that I would enjoy it far more. Being bored out of your mind at work is hard to deal with. It really messes with your interpretation of your self-worth.
What is important enough to go to war over?
Hmmmm, this is really a tough question because I consider myself anti-war. I do think there have been historical circumstances where war was merited. I believe the Civil War was necessary to abolish slavery and that WWII was necessary to end the Holocaust. I would say, in my opinion, war is necessary when no other options exist that would stop people from taking away other people’s basic human rights; including life- I think that is pretty basic.
Which is worse, failing or never trying?
My answer, hands-down, is never trying. I say it all the time, and believe it 100%, that we learn and grow from our failures and they are necessary to our personal development. I am not afraid of failure, though I once was, and because of this I am finally starting to live for the first time. Like the great Wayne Gretzky said, “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” and I couldn’t agree more.
When was the last time you listened to the sound of your own breathing?
I know it may sound strange but I regularly listen to the sound of my own breathing. As I work towards getting in shape and improving my cardio endurance one of the most important things for me to focus on is my breathing. So whenever I am on the bike or jogging I listen to my breathing; is it steady, am I taking deep breaths, am I breathing at all, in order to help control my heart rate. Just last night at boxing the class instructor told me to focus on exhaling with each punch so that is what I did. It really was shocking to me the importance your breathing technique plays in exercise. See how much I am learning???
Thanks for reading!
Well, I must admit that although my vacation was awesome I am so happy to be home. It was fun breaking out my routine, seeing new sights, trying new foods, etc., but it is hard to balance that lifestyle with my normal routine which is almost completely based around weight loss. I went into New Orleans with a set of goals and a mindset to stick to them no matter what until I got there and realized I would much rather be out exploring than stuck in the gym. I did go a little overboard when it came to food but I tried my hardest to not go too crazy and most times I would order an appetizer as my entrée to at least help keep my portion sizes down. I am very happy to report that I weigh less now than I did before I left. I doubt the scales will reflect a big loss on Saturday but hopefully I will still see some kind of loss even if it is negligible. For me, right now my biggest goal is to get back into my routine of eating well and exercising regularly. It is surprising as to how quickly one can fall out of their routine. Hopefully I can finish out this week strong.
I was so happy to read all the comments you guys posted while I was away. I hope you enjoyed the pictures and reading about what we were up to. It was great to be able to share them with you. I really missed being able to write my normal posts while I was away but even more so I missed reading everyone else’s blogs. I tried my best to read as many posts as I could each day but it was tough and I missed a lot of them. I feel like I am a week behind in my reading and hope to catch up soon. It is weird not reading your blogs everyday- I felt so disconnected from you, it was a very strange feeling. I had no idea how much of an impact your words have on my life. It was amazing and somewhat shocking to have that type of reaction. There are a few blogs I read that are written by my close friends and I use these as a way to help me stay connected to their lives. However, most of the blogs I read are written by strangers (meaning I don’t know them outside of their blog) and it was so weird to be on vacation wondering how they were doing with their weight loss or what recipes they posted today or how their training is going, etc. I guess my point of all this babble is it is amazing how close you can grow to people just by reading their blogs.
In other news, things have been quite chaotic since my return to Texas on Monday. While we were away our apartment flooded due to a leak from our A/C unit. My dog walker, Olivia, who was staying at our apartment contacted maintenance and they came out to fix it on Saturday. On Monday, we returned to even more water which had spread from the hallway/bathroom area into our bedroom. Tuesday and Wednesday they came out again and have since assured us the problem has been fixed. Now we are just waiting on the carpet people to come out and replace the padding that was removed last week. What a pain in the butt!
Today at work my boss came over to my desk to drop off a sealed envelope. Yes, I had a mini-stroke thinking it was a pink slip. I think he noticed the look of terror on my face because almost immediately he told me it wasn’t pink. As soon as he left I tore it open, of course thinking it was bad news, only to find that it was paperwork from HR notifying me of my merit raise. Woot! Ok, so it was only a 4% raise but I was still happy to get anything as I have only been here since August and the word on the street was that we probably wouldn’t be getting a raise this year due to our buyout. I’ll take that 4% and be happy with it, no complaints here.
Hmmmm….what else??? I feel so out of practice since it has been a week or so since my last real post. Oh, I almost forgot – I have a goal deadline coming up on April 30th, my second one month weigh-in. The goal was to lose 10 pounds in April so we’ll see on Saturday if that happened or not. It will be close, I don’t think I will be able to pull it off but I am going to try my best to lose those last couple pounds before the weigh-in. Make sure to check back on Saturday!
Paul and I registered yesterday for the Gorilla Challenge taking place here in San Antonio. It’s like a giant scavenger hunt around the city with teams competing for a cash prize. There is also a costume contest and a gorilla contest as well as prizes along the way. Apparently these go on all over the country and if it wasn’t for Living Social (half price registration fee) I probably would not have heard about this. It is scheduled for May 21st and I am pretty pumped about this because I have never done anything like this before. It should be pretty cool!
Before I go I would just like to wish my friend MS a very Happy Birthday! Her birthday was Tuesday, I missed it (although I did text, I didn’t forget it) and we are going to be celebrating it together on Saturday. Also, I would like to congratulate my friend KO. She had a second interview today in Georgia- they would be crazy not to hire her!
Thanks for reading! I missed you guys!
P.S. Can you guess which one is my newest addition, picked up in NOLA, to my little collection of tchotchkes on my desk???
Last weekend someone said something to me that really hurt my feelings. I am not sure if I am just being oversensitive and making a big deal out of nothing (probably, yes) or if a normal person would feel the same. It was meant as a joke, not intended to be hurtful, but for whatever reason I just can’t seem to let it go. Growing up, my Dad would always tell me how I was oversensitive (pot, meet kettle) but yet his criticism did nothing to help me develop a thicker skin. I don’t know why it is but I just take everything to heart; even jokes- which I feel are probably based on truth and therefore still hurtful.
To make matters worse, I get upset at things people say to other people that aren’t even directed to me or pertain to me and I have been known to get upset even if the person who the comment was directed towards doesn’t. For example, the other night I snapped at our friend T because he made some snarky comment to his wife K, a stay at home mother, about needing time to himself to relax when he gets home from work. He said that after a long day of being elbow deep in pig guts (sorry, graphic I know) he needs time to decompress and I said don’t you think K needs time to decompress after being elbow deep in baby poop (not the word I used) all day??? Probably not my place to be commenting on other people’s personal situations but I just couldn’t control myself, the words just came out. Luckily T didn’t take any offense to it and just responded with a chuckle and his patented retort; touché.
As you know, I am like this at work too. The other week my boss made a comment which made me feel like he thought I was incompetent and it has stuck with me ever since. I hate not being able to let go of these feelings and now I have to wonder was that his real intention or was I just overreacting? I have also been known to take performance evaluations to heart and completely freak out when I feel I have been unfairly evaluated and did not receive what I thought I deserved. Is it that maybe a part of being oversensitive is that I misinterpret harmless comments and do not know how to handle criticisms when I receive it?
So, what do I do? I don’t want to be so oversensitive but I am not sure how to stop the feelings I get when people make jokes or remarks that make me feel like I am being judged or looked down on. I want to stop caring so much without actually stopping caring, if that makes sense. Is it a tradeoff or is there a way to be sensitive without being overly sensitive?
As I was writing this I received an email with a link to an article about 6 steps to deal with criticism. Can you say kismet? Since that article fits in ideally with this topic I just had to read it. The article lists the below guidelines which I believe need to be incorporated into my behaviors immediately.
- Don’t Take It Personally
- Think of Criticism Positively
- Deconstruct the Criticism
- Understand the Critic
- Incorporate and Embrace Thoughtfully
- Don’t Worry Too Much About It
I think these guidelines will really help me battle my oversensitivity both at work and in my personal life. If you have the same issues as me I highly recommend taking a look at this article. It provides the reader with tools and ideas that are very insightful. In closing, it provides a great quote from Aristotle which has helped to provide me with some perspective on this issue; “criticism is something you can easily avoid by saying nothing, doing nothing and being nothing”. Touché, Aristotle, touché.
I know that right now most of you are experiencing the same thing I currently am; a bad case of the Mondays. Last night I was thinking to myself that maybe if my weekends were less fun then I wouldn’t despise Mondays so much. However, I am pretty sure that isn’t true. I know if my weekends sucked I would just give up on life completely since my weekends are my saving grace. Mondays are always such a hard transition from weekend relaxation to weekday work stress. It isn’t that I hate my job per se, it is more like a combination of the fact that it is boring and unrewarding and is made exponentially worse dealing with condescension and arrogance from some of my co-workers, all of which just makes me dread being there. I am fortunate to have a job, so I shouldn’t complain but sometimes it is hard not to.
Today my thoughts have been focused around happiness and how I can become happier in some (re: all) aspects of my life. Then, thanks to Twitter, I stumbled across today’s post on SoulPancake which totally meshed with what how I was feeling. Although I tend ramble and rant on about a specific topic, today I would like it if you could read the short blurb on SoulPancake, and if you have time you should definitely check the story that started it all on the Onion, and then let me know what you think.
Is it unrealistic to expect happiness?
I know happiness is a feeling in a moment, and it is fleeting, but do you think it is possible to be happy, or at least feel satisfied, with your life as a whole?
Do you think that it is the need to achieve happiness that keeps us from becoming complacent or accepting mediocrity which in turn fuels our need to continually achieve more which creates more pressure/stress, which in turn makes it impossible to experience happiness?
Preface: I am not a writer. I have never and will never claim to be one. So please no critiquing my writing, grammar, spelling, punctuation, etc. Some days it will suck. I will do my best to proofread everything multiple times but I make no guarantees that every post will make grammatical sense.
I am starting this blog for two reasons; to allow my friends, most of which are scattered around the country, to stay informed on my life’s goings on, and to allow myself a forum to vent. I promise I will try not to make this Dacia’s personal rants and ramblings. More than anything I am reaching out to the people who are kind enough to read this in hopes they can provide positive feedback and motivations I need to help make me a better person.
Last night I was on the cusp of a full on nuclear meltdown. One of those nights where you just can’t seem to stop crying, you just can’t seem to pull yourself together. I was on the phone with my husband, who is currently in KY, and there was nothing he could say to make it better. It was that kind of night- I didn’t even know what I wanted from him so how could I expect him to know how to help. I of course made some snarky comment about how this is why I never want to open up to him, how he doesn’t care (all of which is untrue) and his response was that what I was saying, what I was upset about was nothing new. Apparently the last quasi-meltdown involved the same topics. I realized he was right- I know what I don’t like about my life but yet I do nothing to change it and then every six months get very upset because nothing has changed. Apparently he knew the problem was with me and now I do, too. So here is the premise of my blog: personal accountability in taking the steps needed in order to change my life. It’s nothing new- I am sure there are half a million people blogging about the same issues/problems but oh, well. I am using this as a tool and I see no shame in it.
I have four areas in my life that are in need of a serious overhaul; career, social life, physical health/wellness, and family- or lack thereof. Pretty much right now every aspect in my life aside from my marriage could use some attention so I am going to set out some goals in these four areas and see if I can make some changes. So, stay tuned.
Oh, and I will try to talk about other stuff too. They won’t all be boring, I swear.
Thanks for reading!